Friday 2 July 2010

Worrying dream

I had a disturbing dream last night that is preying on my mind. It starred close friend called Barbara, who died of a stroke aged 59, three years ago this month. I miss her greatly as she was a unique, talented, supremely witty woman, a complete one-off, stubborn and feisty, an RAF officer's daughter who ever suffered fools gladly. The fact that this was the first time I had dreamed about her since she died feels significant, somehow.

In the dream, I was in a bronze car with her, which matched her bronze coloured coat. For some odd reason, she was disguised as rabbi, with long black ringlets, yarmulka and a straggly beard, and black-rimmed glasses. She said there was a reason why she was in hiding but she wouldn't tell me. She was driving me away but I didn't want to go and asked to be let out of the car. Then she said she needed to speak to my partner. I got out and she drove off (very badly, I may add, on the wrong side of the road; in life Barbara, like me, never learned to drive). She came back with Mr G in the back seat and I stood by the window talking to her. In a low voice, she asked if the papers he had signed that concerned me were legal. Suddenly, I knew she was talking about his Will. He downloaded a form off the internet and got the neighbours to sign as witnesses, so I don't know if it is legal or not.

She took off her false beard and wig, revealing a hair-do that looked very like my own. I tried to climb into the back seat next to Mr G, but she said no, and took off in a hurry, leaving me with one foot in the car, hanging onto the open door. I fell off onto the grass verge and they disappeared into the distance. Then I woke up.

It's got me rattled. I hope it wasn't a premonition that something bad is going to happen to him...

5 comments:

Perovskia said...

Oh dear :( That would indeed be unsettling. I have no words of comfort, unfortunately. But I do have hugs.

*hugs*

Perovskia said...

And yes, even if it's off the internet, so long as it's signed by witnesses, it's legal. Here, anyways.

Jackie Sayle said...

It's rabbi disguise that's intrigued me. Do any of you have Jewish connections??

hydra said...

I have very distant Russian Jewish ancestry on my father's side, so it doesn't count. And Mr Grumpy is a Catholic. Weird, eh?

Teresa Ashby said...

How horrible. Dreams like that can leave you feeling out of sorts for days.